Day 4 of not being pregnant anymore and I woke up feeling…horny.
This is classic for Day 4 of my period. However, as I came to, I remembered why I was bleeding and suddenly felt heartbroken, the sensations of desire evaporating and my chest hardening and spilling out of me all at once.
But the heartbreak passed just as quickly as the raunchiness had, and today was in general much easier than yesterday. A creative surge in the afternoon (also normal for Day 4 of bleeding) left me diving for the laptop so that I could spill myself onto the page (an exercise that always feels good, no matter what else is going on), neighbours continued to pop over with food and hugs and then in the evening a friend arrived from New York City “to cook for me and do whatever I needed”.
Anyone who has ever had a friend show up for no other reason that to love on you will know how this feels; like you just won the lottery without even buying a ticket. I think she was expecting a blubbering mess but that was yesterday. Today I was creative and together and excited to see a friend. Dinner and lively conversation rounded off an incredibly lovely day.